Declaration of Dependence
On Friday the 19th 2007, I was in the prayer room, after a friend of mine taught on the impact of evolution on the heart of God. There were several things in my mind. I was thinking about the American spirit of independence, and how that independent arrogance has been handed down even from the founding fathers of our nation. Though the foundations of our nation are only very roughly analogous to that of mankind in declaring themselves independent of God, that was the language that was going on in my head as I began to meditate on Acts 17:22-31. I was asking the Lord to reveal his heart towards modern man.
Several phrases in the passage began to cause me to sob uncontrollably as I read them or repeated them to myself. Every time I read “He Himself gives to all people life and breath and all things” and “In Him we live and move and exist.” I felt just how totally small and helpless creatures we are and how totally unable we are to take care of ourselves, no more than a two year old is able to survive without their parents. The imagery of a huge house full of kids perhaps between the ages of 2-9, the faces I saw were of many races, mostly boys. They were gathered near the front door of the house, and their parents were standing near the door. Their faces were full of murderous rage, fists in the air they were screaming. Their parents were weeping, distraught, tears flowing. The husband had his arm around his wife, trying to comfort her, but she was inconsolable. One child who was taller than the rest was actually talking, and the rest were agreeing with everything he was saying. Whenever I got to the phrase, “We also are his children” I felt just how broken God's heart is, and would sob and shake. It was as if He was mourning their death. I could feel the intensity of His longing to be with them, yet at the same time I felt His holy zeal for his name as creator. I kept praying and crying out (while praying in tongues) “Have mercy! Here I am, one of your children, I declare my dependence.” After about 45 minutes of meditation/prayer/sobbing the Holy Spirit explicitly told me to write. This is what I wrote (edited some): Declaration of Dependence
Several phrases in the passage began to cause me to sob uncontrollably as I read them or repeated them to myself. Every time I read “He Himself gives to all people life and breath and all things” and “In Him we live and move and exist.” I felt just how totally small and helpless creatures we are and how totally unable we are to take care of ourselves, no more than a two year old is able to survive without their parents. The imagery of a huge house full of kids perhaps between the ages of 2-9, the faces I saw were of many races, mostly boys. They were gathered near the front door of the house, and their parents were standing near the door. Their faces were full of murderous rage, fists in the air they were screaming. Their parents were weeping, distraught, tears flowing. The husband had his arm around his wife, trying to comfort her, but she was inconsolable. One child who was taller than the rest was actually talking, and the rest were agreeing with everything he was saying. Whenever I got to the phrase, “We also are his children” I felt just how broken God's heart is, and would sob and shake. It was as if He was mourning their death. I could feel the intensity of His longing to be with them, yet at the same time I felt His holy zeal for his name as creator. I kept praying and crying out (while praying in tongues) “Have mercy! Here I am, one of your children, I declare my dependence.” After about 45 minutes of meditation/prayer/sobbing the Holy Spirit explicitly told me to write. This is what I wrote (edited some): Declaration of Dependence
The heart of the Father in creation.
My children have issued and ratified a declaration of independence from their Father and mother. They have said, “We do not need you! We are capable of providing for ourselves through our own economy. We are capable of governing ourselves we have elected our king. We do not need you! Leave us now! We created you in our image because we were small and needed something greater than what we were to depend upon. But now we have grown to our full stature and can stand on our own. We have healed ourselves and no longer need that crutch. This house is ours! Leave NOW!” And they picked up stones which I had made and they stoned me. So I left the house I had made and sat at the right hand of my Father.
So I sent them my prophets in these last days and this was the message I put in their lips, “It was I who formed you by the wisdom that was with me from before the foundations, by the woman wisdom. It was she who gave you birth, she was the master workman with me rejoicing in you, our son. I formed you in your mother's womb. I have made the house. It is I who uphold the heavens and give you light. It is I who pay the bills to keep the lights on. It is I that pay the bills to keep the heat on. What are you doing I love you. You are my children the dream of my heart. You cannot function without me. By my wisdom I lovingly cook your meals every day. I give you the food you eat. What are you doing? This is madness, but I will do as you say. I will leave you to your own devises. I will stop paying the bills. The water will be turned off first. Then the heat. Then the lights, the very lights of the heavens will be darkened. What will you eat? What will you drink? This is your only hope, all of you declare yourself dependent. Come to me and I will come and return to the house. I will put my house in order. If you do not return oh my children my children and welcome me I will not return to you to, and you will forever have what you want. You will have the deep darkness the outer darkness where there will be much weeping and gnashing of teeth. You will have the fire of your hatred where your worm where your worm will not die and your fire will not be quenched. You will have your independence.”